I dont deserve that

I don't know myself that "Do I really deserve this plight ?" .  Year by year its deteriorating and I can see myself going to other part of life... About brain it just doesn't work anymore, it pains , I can't gaze at anything for long, hands tremble to do somethings, feet are in catch-22 situation , and what else left in me to get over.. I know  You have given me many things, but You were never stayed back also in taking them back or adjusting in some other way... All I can just plead in front of you , please STOP it , Really Please STOP It GOD , its really too much and I raise my Hands please please, I am not even asking You to give me strength to bear those sufferings, because its not at all helping also.. Please please please........